My Girl.

Just starting off the week sharing some adorableness.  Hope you have a great week!

She wanted a big girl cup at Starbucks.

Reading with Daddy.  Be still my heart.

Showing off Daddy's glasses.

If You Give A Two Year-Old Your Phone . . .

these are the pictures she will take:

Harper's Chickens.

Harper is all about The Ladies.  She wakes us up in the morning begging us to see the chickens.  We can't go two hours without her pleading to "hold kickens," as she calls them.

 Last week we let them out in their tractor for the first time and Harper (like the chickens) was in heaven.  She sat in the tractor with them for a long time.  She fed them and petted them and let them run all run her.  It was free babysitting for me!  Ha!  But seriously, I got to do the dishes quickly and sweep the kitchen floor!  I'd forgotten that those are simple chores that can be completed in less than 10 minutes without a little helper.  Unfortunately, I did these chores instead of taking pictures of her in the tractor, but I'm sure that once the weather stays warm I'll snap some of her in there.

Everyone loves The Ladies.

Spring Time.

Happy Wednesday, everyone!

Some Randomness.

After yesterday's serious tone, I thought today could be a calmer, happier post.  Completely random and with less words.  Enjoy your weekend.

Cuddling with Charlie the day we got her back.

Quality time with daddy.

Just too cute for words.

On a serious note.

I have baby fever.  I've had it since Harper was about five months old.  And when you have baby fever it seems like EVERYONE is getting pregnant or has a baby.  Literally everyone.  And all those other people who don't have babies?  Well, they aren't as present on your radar.  Why our bodies and minds do this to us is beyond me.  It's frustrating and ridiculous and makes me spend endless hours looking at baby blogs and web sites.  Torture.


One of the moms in Harper's music class found out she was having a baby girl about two weeks ago.  This was great news to her because they have three boys.  Watching her pregnancy become more pronounced week after week hurt.  It's a ridiculously selfish thing, but I would be lying if I didn't admit it.  But she already has three kids!  I've only got one!  Isn't it my turn?  Silly, pathetic, and utterly unappreciative for what I have.  


At her ultrasound they found out not only that they were having a girl, but also that her placenta wasn't growing with the baby.  Three days later she gave birth to a stillborn daughter.


I felt like a complete and total ass.  How could I not just be happy and content with what I have?  Why be jealous of what someone else has?  Everyone has their own struggles, their own challenges to face.  I have a beautiful, happy, healthy, lovable little girl.  When/if we have another baby isn't something I can make happen when I want.  It's a difficult reality to face, but there's no way around it.  It's not going to make seeing pregnant women or newborns any easier, but I have to move past this jealousy.  I wouldn't trade my life or my family for anything.  My heart goes out to all who have loved and lost the way this family has.  There's nothing like having the greatest joy and the greatest sorrow happen to you in one fell swoop.  I just have to remember to take it one day at a time and be grateful for what's right in front of me.  You just never know what trials other people are going through and being jealous does no good.

Easter.

Easter Sunday was a really lovely day.  The weather was perfect, the food was delicious, and Harper had a great time looking for (lots of) eggs.  I would have posted a video but I get distracted easily and forget to watch what I'm filming instead of watching Harper.  So the videos are bumpy and a bit nauseating.  But got all dressed up to take pictures, hunt eggs, and eat.  I hope your Easter was just a blissful.